January 7, 2006
Mood:  blue
Topic: Josh
Hello,
Well scines this is my first entry and i am sad. Well it all started yasterday whan Bob (my stepdad im not going to ues any real names except one)got home . well everyday when he gets home he tells us about his day . He rides with this guy named Josh(real name). He is 17 and got kicked out of high school and im 13 and i really liked him. I dont think 4 years is bad mom and bob are 5 years but it is different. Well bob has been teasing me about him so yeah i started too like him. So last night he was teasing me about Josh then he said no once he hits 18 he has too leavre all these teenagers alone. Then he said he wouldn't be interested in you anyway. That realy hurt my feelings. It was like he was sayin i wasn't worth it. He just dosnt understand me. You cant give someone hope and then crush it :-( . And i really liked him too. we had alot of stuff in common like we both are big rednecks and we both have no since of directions and we both like goats and we both like coon hunting. Thers more things i just haven't found yet. I've only met him twice. The only thing i see wrong with him is that he drives a dodge and im a chevy girl . Last night about 3:30 him bob and my 2 little brothers left to go to SC 4 a coon hunting thing and his truck is out in our drive way. I seen him this morning too i think he had a black Carrhart on. There is another thing we both have Carrharts except mine is brown. He was sleepy he had been coon huntin and well who knows wat time he got home i know bob made him take a shower. I feel realy down though cause bob thinks i can be with him i don't care how much older he is 4 years isn't bad.Well i better go.

Shananogen :)